It does not even seem possible that I will be having my three month scan this Thursday morning. Three months...wow! Although my time in the hospital seemed like some of the longest days of my life, the time that I have been home since the transplant has gone by so quickly! I do have three little blessings to keep me pretty busy. Caleb, Lauren, and Audrey have been the best motivators in the world! I've always said they are my rainbow in this storm.
Over the last several weeks I have felt really good. I am so grateful for the energy and strength that the Lord brings me. I am very eager to have the scan on Thursday. I will arrive at the hospital at 8:50, and the scan will follow shortly thereafter. Please pray for continued peace while we anticipate the scan and also as we wait for the results. Over the last few weeks, I've felt so helpless at times. I am so grateful for the blessing of my family, and the opportunity to live a fulfilling and very happy life whether in the valleys or on the mountaintops. It is difficult though to wait. Whether it is CAT scans or visits to the doctor, I know I will live the rest of my life holding my breath to hear the calming words of relief. I know this means one thing...I will rely on my precious Lord even more for that amazing peace that can only come from Him.
I see life differently now. I wish I had never been diagnosed with cancer. Yet at the same time, I am grateful for the way my eyes have been re-opened....to His grace and mercy, to His sustaining peace, and to the beautiful blessing of the unconditional support of my family and friends. It's almost too personal to even explain. Even without knowing the results of the scan or what lies ahead in the future, I feel I have been given a second chance at life. The chance to rearrange my priorities...to hold my children a little tighter, to kiss them a little more often, to appreciate everything my husband does for our family, to recognize opportunities that God gives me to encourage others walking this same journey...to continue learning and growing from this experience for the rest of my life! However, whenever, whatever, whoever....I am willing to share my story.
I love the song that is playing....I have never heard it before tonight, but He truly is the Keeper of My Heart!
Thank you for blessing me with your love and prayers!