Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Praying for a Miracle

We've heard the words before, but hearing them yesterday rang louder and ran deeper into our hurting hearts: resistant lymphoma. I don't like those words. I don't like that they pertain to my life. I want to live. I want to have more years with my husband and see my beautiful children grow up. I am asking you to pray with us for a miracle. I know...we have all been doing this. At this point, a miracle is what it will take to remove this cancer from my body.

I held it together very well while the doctor was talking to us. I heard every word he said and remember looking in his eyes with a strength that was not my own. I kept thinking...the Lord is right here with us, and I know people are surrounding us with prayer; otherwise, I would have melted. I am so grateful for the presence of the Lord in that room with us.

The only option at this point is to participate in a study. It is not yet known to be effective with lymphoma, but it is also not known to be ineffective. The treatment would not involve chemo drugs, as this has already proven itself ineffective for me. This study uses an immuno-boosting drug in hopes of equipping one's own immune system to build up and fight for itself (those are my words). I will provide more details on this soon.

Please pray hard. Please promise me that you are just as much prayer warriors for Doug, Caleb, Lauren, and Audrey as you are for me. Doug and I are being hit with a possible reality that is more than we know how to process. Please pray that God's peace will literally permeate our hearts, our minds, and the walls of our home.

I still believe, and I still trust.

We love you,


Steph said...

Melissa -

I am so sorry the news you received was not better. I will continue to pray for you and your family. You are a true inspriation as your faith is so strong.

Steph (From Stepping Stones)

Kristina said...

I began following your blog because of my friend Amy Perry. She first asked for prayers for you and your beautiful family and I was glad to be apart of the prayer group. I check your blog weekly and I too was hoping for great news for you. I just want to let you know that I admire your strength and will continue to pray for you daily. I know God has a plan in all this and He will see you through it every step of the way.


Kristi said...

Oh, Melissa. So sorry you didn't get better news. We will continue to lift you all up in prayer. Your faith and attitude is truly amazing and inspiring. We love and miss you all! Kristi

Greg McDonald said...


God's words to Jehoshaphat in facing the enemy as recorded in 2 Chronicles 20: v. 15, "This is what the Lord says to you: 'Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. FOR THE BATTLE IS NOT YOURS, BUT GOD'S.'" v. 17, "Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the Lord will be with you."

Covering ALL of you in prayer. I love you!


Sioux said...

Please check out this gal if you haven't already: http://my.crazysexylife.com/group/adventurecleansetuneupactlovers

I am a stranger to you, but a faithful reader of your blog and have been following your trials since you were diagnosed. We had a son-in-law that was diagnosed with Burkitt's Lymphoma about the same time. Our prayers are with you and your family fervently hoping for more miracles!

RevMarkWardBopp said...

Melissa, I too am sorry forthe news you got. I am the children's pastor at Charlene & Greg's church, and I was treated for tonsil cancer this last November. Surgery, chemo & lots of radiation. I thought I would never feel better again, but I am feeling better these last few weeks. The CT scan now says that I am 'clean'.
My wife of 19 years died of luekemia 11 yrs ago, we had 3 kids, 11,15 & 17. I thought I would never love again, but I did. I will be married to Marla 10very much wonderful years this year.
I say all this only to let you know that I love God, but I know that He is in charge. I have no idea what will come next, but just like you, I am still trusting the Lord. I don't know how sometimes, but I know why. Write back if you wish. markwardbopp1@gmail.com

StacyandChad said...

Standing in agreement with you and praying hard for a miracle for you, Melissa!
You're faith is such a testimony to me!

Stacy (A Stepping Stones friend of Jenn)

Jessica said...

Melissa, I am so sorry. I have been following your blog, and you have been on my mind so much as I pray with you for a miracle. God brings you to mind often, I will continue to pray for a miracle for you and your family, and for you to find rest in His strong arms every day. love, Jess

3 Twisted Sisters said...

Melissa - not the news I was hoping for - anything you need I'm here!!!! I keep thinking of my favorite quote - Learn from yesterday, live for today and HOPE for tomorrow! I am hoping, praying and believing in you!!!!! Jen

c said...

I am sorry that the news was not what we wanted. I know that our Father can work when all else seems hopeless. Your faith is outstanding and an inspiration to me. I will keep you in my prayers daily. I am a friend of Michelle.

Jenn said...

Sweet Sis and Doug~
I can't imagine how tired you both are...tired of thinking about this, talking about it, and just wanting it to go away.

Just know that ALL OF US will be standing in the gap for you now to fight this thing with some MAJOR prayer!!!!! We will pray for rest for the two of you (and the kids too!) while we are here for you to lean on anytime of day or night!

We love you both more than measley words in our commmet can say!

~Jenn and Mike

Katrina said...

I am definitely praying, Melissa. Shortly after my mom was diagnosed with leukemia, a new drug was released onto the market (gleevec.) She chose to start taking it, and is now in remission. I pray that this new drug works, and that this "resistant lymphoma" as they have labeled it, is no longer resistant. Here's sending a hug!

Andy and Wendy Ingram said...

Praying right now and will continue to pray for a miracle! Praying for your husband and your three children and that you would all feel his presence, strength, comfort, and enoughness in the midst of this time.

kconsoletti said...

I have been following your blog as I am a friend of your sister Jenn from SS..... you & your family have been in my thoughts and prayers through all of this.... You are an inspiration of faith and hope..... Praying for a miracle ........

SentimentsbyDenise said...

Tonight I posted a Bible verse on my blog from Psalm 91 that speaks of trust. Before I even read your post here.
I believe.
Rest in Him.

Cara said...

My heart is heavy but our God is big. Praying for all of you!

Amy said...

I don't know what else to say, but that I will keep praying. God has something better in store that only He knows. I pray for strength for your family as they deal with this as well. Your faith is amazing and such a testament to so many, Missy!

Love you!
Amy, David & Courtlyn

eric said...

praying tonight.
believing in miracles.
Kerri Stetler

The Burgess Family said...

Praying... remember with cancer, you focus on the CAN!!!!

Bethany Dawn Burns said...

You don't know me but I am friends with Amy Perry and saw a link to your blog. I am thirty years old and a mother of two. I just wanted you to know your story has touched my heart. I will pray for you and your family. I believe in miracles!

Mark said...

I just read this and I am praying through tears right now. My heart is begging for the miracle that you've been waiting so patiently for. I am praying, hoping, and rooting for you!
Hope Labutis