Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Quick Update from Appt

I spoke with Miss quickly today on the phone this afternoon. She said overall, it's good news...that the new doctor presented some more options that were not tried yet. That is very encouraging to her and Doug and to the rest of us too! We were so relieved to hear that there are more options yet, as that's what we prayed for!

I'll let Miss give you more details when she returns to Indy, so that you get the right facts. Until then, know that we all are SO grateful for your prayers! Also, know that Miss is having an absolute blast in New York City with her husband and friend, Em....lots of fun with shopping and hitting some cool restarants too.

Just realized how even more fitting the song is that's playing now...and I didn't even know she was headed to NYC when I posted that. "Greater things are yet to come, and greater things are still to be done in this city..."

You'll hear more from her within a couple days!

With love and appreciation!!!

Her sister,

Thursday, May 21, 2009

A Second Opinion

Melissa is getting a second opinion at Memorial Sloan-Kettering Cancer Center in New York City. The appointment is scheduled for this coming Tuesday at 9 am.

Please pray for wisdom for the new doctors--that these doctors will be able to offer some other options to treat this. Also, please pray for the kids while Miss is away. It is hard on her and them both to be apart from one another.

She and Doug will both be going. She is glad too that she'll get to spend some time with her dear friend Emily while she is on the east coast.

Thanks in advance for your prayers!

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Be Encouraged

I wanted to post this song for my sister. Such encouragement in these words!

"Greater things are still to come. Greater things are yet to be done..."

I believe that!

As you pray, will you dare to believe that with us?

You're the God of this city
You're the King of these people
You're the Lord of this nation
You Are

You're the light in this darkness
You're the hope to the hopeless
You're the peace to the restless
You are

For there is no one like our God
There is no one like You God

For greater things have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done
In this city
Greater things have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done here

You're the Lord of Creation
The Creator of all things
You're the King above all kings
You Are

You're the strength in the weakness
You're the love to the broken
You're the joy in the sadness
You Are

For there is no one like our God
There is no one like You God

For greater things have yet to come
Greater things are still to be done
In this city
When glory shines from hearts alive
With praise for You and love for You
In this city

Greater things have yet to come
Greater things are still to be done
In this city
Greater things have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done here.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Prayer Calendar

Sign up for the prayer calendar for the remainder of May and June here!!!

I know it will help her to see who is visibly covering her and Doug and the kids in prayer that day. Just leave a comment under that month.

Thank you in advance!!!!!!


Praying for a Miracle

We've heard the words before, but hearing them yesterday rang louder and ran deeper into our hurting hearts: resistant lymphoma. I don't like those words. I don't like that they pertain to my life. I want to live. I want to have more years with my husband and see my beautiful children grow up. I am asking you to pray with us for a miracle. I know...we have all been doing this. At this point, a miracle is what it will take to remove this cancer from my body.

I held it together very well while the doctor was talking to us. I heard every word he said and remember looking in his eyes with a strength that was not my own. I kept thinking...the Lord is right here with us, and I know people are surrounding us with prayer; otherwise, I would have melted. I am so grateful for the presence of the Lord in that room with us.

The only option at this point is to participate in a study. It is not yet known to be effective with lymphoma, but it is also not known to be ineffective. The treatment would not involve chemo drugs, as this has already proven itself ineffective for me. This study uses an immuno-boosting drug in hopes of equipping one's own immune system to build up and fight for itself (those are my words). I will provide more details on this soon.

Please pray hard. Please promise me that you are just as much prayer warriors for Doug, Caleb, Lauren, and Audrey as you are for me. Doug and I are being hit with a possible reality that is more than we know how to process. Please pray that God's peace will literally permeate our hearts, our minds, and the walls of our home.

I still believe, and I still trust.

We love you,

Friday, May 8, 2009

CAT scan results

I received a call from my nurse this morning. It's not the greatest news, but I keep telling myself it could be worse. The main mass has grown .9 centimeters. The rest of the areas have remained the same (so while there is no shrinking....they have not grown either). I always try to prepare myself for news like this, but yet I also can't help but think of the possibility of my cancer shrinking or even disappearing. Although I wish the results were different, I can assure you that somehow there is still joy and peace in my heart. I would love to show and tell the world my story after complete healing, but perhaps the bigger impact comes even in the midst of the storm and less than desirable news. God works in mysterious ways, right?

Our appointment with the oncologist is Monday at 1:45 p.m. Please be praying that we would know what direction we are to take next...and just for peace and rest in the meantime. My God is still faithful....He will continue to carry us and make us stronger through this time.

I was blessed to spend the afternoon with one of the sweetest friends in the world. (Thanks Melissa!) She and her son came over for the afternoon so the kids could play and we could talk. Talk about great timing...we had this day planned not knowing what the results would be. The Lord knew just what I needed to lift my spirits and heart!

I will update after Monday with decisions that are made in terms of treatment. I thank you for being a part of my life!

Much love,

Monday, May 4, 2009

Three Month Scan

It does not even seem possible that I will be having my three month scan this Thursday morning. Three months...wow! Although my time in the hospital seemed like some of the longest days of my life, the time that I have been home since the transplant has gone by so quickly! I do have three little blessings to keep me pretty busy. Caleb, Lauren, and Audrey have been the best motivators in the world! I've always said they are my rainbow in this storm.

Over the last several weeks I have felt really good. I am so grateful for the energy and strength that the Lord brings me. I am very eager to have the scan on Thursday. I will arrive at the hospital at 8:50, and the scan will follow shortly thereafter. Please pray for continued peace while we anticipate the scan and also as we wait for the results. Over the last few weeks, I've felt so helpless at times. I am so grateful for the blessing of my family, and the opportunity to live a fulfilling and very happy life whether in the valleys or on the mountaintops. It is difficult though to wait. Whether it is CAT scans or visits to the doctor, I know I will live the rest of my life holding my breath to hear the calming words of relief. I know this means one thing...I will rely on my precious Lord even more for that amazing peace that can only come from Him.

I see life differently now. I wish I had never been diagnosed with cancer. Yet at the same time, I am grateful for the way my eyes have been re-opened....to His grace and mercy, to His sustaining peace, and to the beautiful blessing of the unconditional support of my family and friends. It's almost too personal to even explain. Even without knowing the results of the scan or what lies ahead in the future, I feel I have been given a second chance at life. The chance to rearrange my priorities...to hold my children a little tighter, to kiss them a little more often, to appreciate everything my husband does for our family, to recognize opportunities that God gives me to encourage others walking this same journey...to continue learning and growing from this experience for the rest of my life! However, whenever, whatever, whoever....I am willing to share my story.

I love the song that is playing....I have never heard it before tonight, but He truly is the Keeper of My Heart!

Thank you for blessing me with your love and prayers!