Yesterday was the one month anniversary of my bone marrow transplant. It does not even seem possible that a month has already passed...I am so grateful for how the Lord has brought me through each day. I am gaining strength little by little. The first night I was home, Doug was helping me to and from the bathroom. I was either in bed or on the sofa most of the day. Now, two weeks later, I am going up and down the stairs without a problem, doing laundry, giving the kids a bath, and even cooking every now and then. Thank You, Lord! I have appreciated every single minute of being home. It's amazing how much more precious the big and little things in life have become over the last few months.
I was thinking as I went to sleep Wednesday night, how wonderful it would be if I heard from my doctor's office on Thursday...the one month anniversary. Well, the Lord graciously granted my heart's desire. My nurse called Thursday evening. She let me know that the radiologist's report stated "overall good results." She went on to tell me what brought a calming peace to my heart. Nothing new has developed and nothing has grown. The nodules that were on my lungs are NO LONGER VISIBLE. (That is a HUGE praise...if I remember correctly even after my chemo in the fall, the nodules had even grown somewhat rather than decrease.) Nothing was said specifically about the main mass that has been there since the beginning, but we do know at least it has not grown. I was so relieved just to hear from her; although I have waited many, many times before to hear results of tests, it really doesn't get any easier.
I also wanted to explain something else she told me. Bone marrow transplant patients normally do not have their first scan until three months post-transplant. I had my first scan at the one month mark, only because of the clinical study I was a part of with one of my chemo drugs, clorapharabene (sp?). This drug is typically used in treating leukemia, and in some cases has "shown activity" in treating lymphoma. My doctor doesn't really consider this first scan a reliable measurement of success. Again, this scan was required for the study. All I have to say is....thank you Lord for this little bit of good news to hold onto for the next two months until my next scan! If these results are "overall good", and if the nodules are no longer visible, then we can trust and pray even more good news is on it's way! In case you are wondering, the three month period (although it could seem like a long time to wait) allows the chemo and the transplant process to really take effect and continue working to it's full capacity. My next scan will actually be scheduled at my doctor's appointment (Thursday, March 12), but I do know it will be sometime in early May. Although I am still guarding myself until I hear further results at that time, I feel the need to shout out thanks to the Lord for what He has done. He has answered many prayers over the last few weeks, and He deserves all the glory and praise. I am going to continue praying, trusting, and believing that His work is not yet done in my body.
I cannot even thank you enough for your fervent prayers. I am so humbled every day to realize the number of people that are lifting me and my family up in prayer. I am reminded of this through your calls, e-mails, facebook messages, meals, and the hundreds of cards that I've received. I don't think I have shared yet on the blog what a HUGE blessing all of the mail has been...especially when I was in the hospital. I loved it when the nurses would carry in mail to my room...what a smile it brought! Please don't ever underestimate the power of a card or note. Don't ever talk yourself out of writing someone who is on your heart and mind...there is a reason God has put them there. I am a great example of this....your cards have been such a lifeline of support and encouragement to me! Thank you!!!
I will close for now. My heart is full of thanks for the good report from the scan, for a family whose love I couldn't do without, and for friends who are such a blessing. "Thank you Lord for my life. Thank you for saving me and loving me. Thank you for the strength and peace you bring me each day. I trust You, and I love You."
I love and appreciate each of you,