Monday, December 29, 2008

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Merry Christmas

I just wanted to let all of you dear friends and family know that I am recovering well after my surgery on Friday. The procedure went as planned, and we are waiting for results. I was able to come home Sunday afternoon. I definitely had some very uncomfortable moments the first day following surgery, but praise the Lord....He saw me through as I knew He would. I am being taken care of very well, as you can imagine between my husband and sister. My brother-in-law, Mike, has been such a huge help too! I am so thankful to have yet another hurdle behind me. I am so thankful for the peace that fills my heart as we wait....yet again.
I have received some very encouraging cards notes from many of you. Please don't ever underestimate what this means! I love getting mail....I love opening Christmas cards....I love being reminded that you have my family on your hearts and in your prayers. What a blessing!
I hope each of you have a wonderful Christmas. I am surrounded by a beautiful Christmas tree full of sparkling lights, holiday decorations, homemade goodies, my beautiful children (who are sprinkling reindeer food outside our house right now), and amazing family...and best of all, the love of a Savior who came into this world to save my life. I couldn't ask for more. Thank you, God for sending your only Son into this world...for me (and for all of YOU!).
I love you,
Melissa

Friday, December 19, 2008

In Recovery

Melissa has been in recovery since her biopsy this morning. Doug and my mom are now getting to go back to see her. She's doing well, and the doctor said they were able to get a few samples through the biopsy this morning. It should take about a week to get results back from the biopsy. As far as I understand it, the purpose of this biopsy was to check again to see if it was a misdiagnosis, so we can pray for that! We can pray that we will find out that it is something totally different, and that would explain why the chemo was not effective.

Internet service at Doug and Miss's house is slightly tricky, so I'm actually at the library to post the update. I know that there are hundreds and hundreds of people praying and wondering right now, and we appreciate that beyond words! We will try to post again as soon as we hear anything else. Again, thanks for the prayers!

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Biopsy Surgery Tomorrow

I'm sorry I've failed to let you all know the exact time of the surgery. It is in fact tomorrow morning, and it is scheduled for seven-thirty. Doug and I need to be there by five-thirty. I was praying that they would not be doing a repeat of the invasive surgery I had in April. The Lord heard and answered that prayer! The surgeon will be going in through my right side, in hopes of getting good biopisies of the nodules on my lung. He will be performing a VATS (video asissted thoracoscopy surgery). This means I will be having two to three smaller incisions, rather than one large open incision. The recovery time for this is obviously much easier than my previous surgery! I will also be having a chest tube again, which was perhaps the worst part for me last time. Thankfully this will only have stay in one day (if all goes as planned). Please pray that....
--they have no issues with scar tissue that could prevent them from retrieving what they need.
--the chest tube is successful in doing what it needs to, and is able to come out soon.
--there is minimal or no post-surgery nausea, and minimal pain.

Please pray especially for my surgeon and his medical team. Pray that their hands and decisions are guided by God. And of course, let's pray and believe together that we will know definite results soon from the biopsy. Doug and I are so humbled by your love and support. Thank you to each one of you who are praying for us and taking our needs before the Lord. I, once again, have a peace in my heart. Oh dear friends, this can only come through our Heavenly Father. I am trusting, and I know He is with me.

Much love,
Melissa

Monday, December 15, 2008

"Pray For Melissa" (prayer calendar)

Please look at Melissa's new prayer calendar.

We appreciate everyone's prayers, and would love to give her a visible picture of the many friends and loved ones that are literally covering her in prayer every single day...If you would like to choose a date to pray diligently for her, reply back in the comments of that post, and I'll add your name to your chosen date on the calendar.

Thank you for allowing her to see the many prayers that surround her daily!!

Friday, December 12, 2008

I Believe

This song went through my mind over and over again yesterday. Doug and I are trying to wrap our minds around the news we learned at the appointment. The results are not what we were hoping for....we, at least I, had tried to brace myself for any possiblity, yet sitting there in the room I kept thinking "please let this be a dream...wake me up."
The cancer did not respond to the chemo. The main mass has not changed in size....no shrinking and no growing. The PET scan did show it's "activity" to have increased since the last scan. The nodules on my lungs have grown. Even in the face of receiving the two one-week-rounds of chemo....they grew.
Here is where we are. If this is in fact lymphoma...it is resistant to chemo. There is no known cure. They could try new things....attempt to venture into untread waters to treat it. The only other thing they would try is a donor bone marrow transplant. My sisters will be tested first, as siblings have a strong chance of matching. There is a SLIM chance this could be something other than lymphoma. Yes, meaning there was a mis-diagnosis. (remember...slim) In order to be sure of going forward with the bone marrow transplant, we have to rule out this slim chance of something else. This requires a biopsy. A needle guided biopsy is not the best option, as it is not one hundred percet reliable. If you would have told me even a few weeks ago that there was a chance I would be having surgery again, I would have trembled. The Lord is walking with me....no, He is carrying me. At this point, I want them to do anything they need to....I am not scared about another surgery. I will be having the appointment with the surgeon Wednesday morning at eight o'clock, and then it is looking like the surgery will be Friday morning. Any of you would kick into the fighting mode too....do whatever is necessary to give me years with my family. My children need me....I need them.
We went to the church yesterday after leaving the doctor's office. There has been weeping....but I know that deep in our hearts Doug and I know God is carrying us. Please pray with us....pray for God's strength and peace to fill our hearts and our home. Pray for wisdom with decisions. Pray for a miracle. God is bigger than this. I trust Him no matter what....we love you, and thank you for your support.


Though I can't see Your holy face
And Your throne in heaven above
It seems so far away
Though I cant touch your nail scarred hands
I have a deep and unspeakable joy
That makes my faith to stand

Lord, I believe in You
I'll always believe in You
Though I cant see you with my eyes
Deep in my heart Your presence I find
Lord, I believe in You
And I'll keep my trust in You
Let the whole world say what they may
No one can take this joy away
Lord, I believe

Born from above You are Gods only chosen one
You're the one and only true way
To the Fathers heart
You died for all sin
Then you rose and now live again
Conquering death and the grave
So that I might live

Lord, I believe in You
I'll always believe in You
Though I cant see you with my eyes
Deep in my heart Your presence I find
Lord, I believe in You
And I'll keep my trust in You
Let the whole world say what they may
No one can take this joy away
Lord, I believe

Friday, December 5, 2008

PET scan today and appt Thursday!

Please be praying for Melissa as she has her PET scan today. This will show if the past two rounds of the new chemo regimen has been working or not. Please continue to be in prayer for them as they wait out the results, which they will not find out until their next appointment with the oncologist this Thursday, December 11th. We are praying for a good report! Please join us in doing that...

Thank you!!

Monday, December 1, 2008

My Beautiful Sister

I wanted to write a little bit about my sister, Jennifer. Isn't she beautiful? She and her husband, Mike, traveled in from Pennsylvania to spend Thanksgiving with us. Needless to say, we had an incredible time with them. They are awesome individuals, and we are so blessed to have them in our lives. She began this blog for me several months ago after my diagnosis. She is such a blessing in my life, as is my other sister Michelle (who is just as beautiful as Jenn...). Both of my sisters are such gifts to me. They have walked with me every step of this uncertain journey, and I thank the Lord for giving them to me. (Actually, I am the youngest, so He gave me to them! Ha ha)
Thank you Jennifer for the creation of this blog. The Lord has used it as a bridge of information and updates to many family, friends, and churches on my progress. I am so grateful that it is a tool used to gather prayer warriors in time of need, as well as a way to express our praise to the Lord for what He is doing in our lives. Thank you....I love you so much!

Melissa