Thursday, September 25, 2008

Please take a moment...

Please take a moment to watch this. My dear friend sent this to me....I stood in my kitchen crying as I watched it. It doesn't matter who you are...it will impact you in some way. Trust me....http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wdXX6lzbo78

Much love,
Melissa

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Great News Continued!

I am so happy to let you know (much of the happiness also stems from the fact that all three of my beautiful children are napping) that I will not be undergoing any more chemo! I feel the need to say "for now", because a lot still depends on what the follow-up scans show us over the next few months. My doctor is very pleased with the progress the chemo has made, and strongly believes the shrinkage will continue. My body gets a break, and I am so thrilled. It is amazing that the drugs that are used to help cure my cancer and make me well again, also take me through the valley in the process! I am so thankful the Lord is with me even in those valleys!

I will be having a PET scan next month to check on the areas of concern still visible in my recent CAT scan. We will be able to know if there is any more activity in the tumor. Oh, I am breathing a partial sigh of relief...I think I will breathe a complete sigh of relief in a few years from now! I am happy we are in this part of the journey, and I am still trusting the Lord with whatever lies ahead!

Thank you to you my friends...it is encouraging for me to know you care!

Melissa

Friday, September 12, 2008

Update on CAT scan results

For those of you who have been waiting and praying with us this week as we anticipate the results of the scan, I want to say thank you so much. This has been a very trying week, mentally and emotionally. Although we do not have the comparative results yet, we have received the results from scan done on Monday. Just to clarify, the results we really want will be determined by comparing my scan done following two treatments with the scan on Monday following six treatments.

So, I will give you the very simple version, since that is how I best understand anything in the medical world. The scan of my pelvic and abdominal regions are clear of any tumors. Praise the Lord! We were not anticipating anything to show up here, however there is always the concern in the back of my mind of the lymphoma spreading. So, that is wonderful news. Okay, now as far as the main tumor in my chest cavity, there is a considerable amount of shrinkage. Doug actually called my previous doctor in Ohio, since he knows him personally. He read him the results, and asked him his opinion. At this point, we have to determine if the spots that are still showing up are "active" or not. I am hoping after the radiologist is finished with the comparative study, that we will soon know the next step. Whether it is a PET scan to determine if we are dealing with scar tissue or active tumors (I hope I am stating all of this correctly!), or further chemo just to be sure....I am ready to move forward. I am wishing this wasn't a part of my life, but it is. I want to thank you for making this a part of your life, too.

Your prayers and concern are priceless.

Melissa

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Still waiting...

for the PET scan results. As Melissa's sister, it is a bit tiring to wait this long...I can't imagine how she is feeling herself as she is waiting to hear if the chemo has been effective.

Please pray that she will find out the results tomorrow. I really hope she can be relieved from waiting before the weekend comes.

Also, as always, if you could pray for peace for us all as we wait...

Thank you!

Monday, September 8, 2008

No news yet...

For all of you who may be anxiously waiting to hear the test results, I just needed to let you know that it may take a couple days before they know anything. The doctors are not only reading this PET scan, but they are carefully comparing it with previous PET scans, therefore taking some time.

Thank you all so much for your prayers for her!! I know your every prayer and enouraging word to her mean a ton!

Jenn

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Thoughts from Melissa...

It was nearly six months ago that my world was changed forever with the news that a mass had been found in between my heart and lung. It was nearly six months ago that my appreciation of life increased and my love of family intensified beyond understanding. I have never written yet on this blog that my sweet sister created for me. I have wanted to so many different times, but my heart and mind were so full of thoughts….I felt like I could never organize them well enough. I have really been thinking lately about how grateful I am for all of you who keep up with the updates that my sister posts. I wish I could look each one of you in the eyes and say thank you for your interest in my life, for your ongoing prayers for my family, and for your support and love which has surrounded me.

On Monday, September 8th, at noon, I will be having another CAT scan which will let us know the next step. I will learn if the six treatments of chemo were sufficient in helping my cancer to disappear, or if I will need more. Up until the last round of chemo, I have had the attitude that if I need more….bring it on now. I’m already bald…let’s just get it done. (By the way, I have a new wig, which is so cute! I’m allowed to say that, since it’s not my real hair, right?) Then, after my last chemo, I began begging the Lord to let it be done. I had never been so nauseated prior to that day with my treatments. In the middle of getting sick, I remember being so grateful it hadn’t been like this every time. The Lord has been so faithful in giving me the strength that I need. I wanted to write to you before we know the results of the scan. I wanted to tell you from the bottom of my heart how grateful I am for the prayers that have sustained me. I wanted to tell you how much I am praising the Lord for walking with me during this valley of my life…I want you to know that this thanks and praise does not rest upon hearing good news. “I will sing praise, I will lift my voice…I will sing praise, I’ve made my choice. I will sing praise in all I do…I will sing praise to You.”

I don’t know yet how the Lord is going to use this. “This” being the diagnosis of Non-Hodgkin's’s lymphoma. I know there is never a good time to be diagnosed with a disease, but I can tell you the timing of my diagnosis could not have been more surprising and crazy. Thirty one years of age….a wonderful husband who was on the verge of completing his training as a surgeon…three beautiful children four years and under….about to move to a brand new city where we had no friends, which meant we were leaving our incredible Parkview church family and close friends in Dayton……like I said, there is never a good time to learn you have cancer- but talk about the shock of your life! I’m trusting that God will use this somehow. I want Him to, in whatever way He chooses.

I will write more later. At least I have cleared a little of what has been on my heart and mind. Again, thank you for your prayers and support. Please don’t ever think for one minute that any prayer is said in vain….He is hearing each one and answering them according to His plan.

With love,
Melissa

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Cute Quotes!

During my time with Miss this summer, I tried to catch as many of the cute things that Caleb and Lauren said. To you, I'm sure they would be far cuter hearing it come straight from them, rather than reading the quotes, but here they are--

* "I want cranberry goons!" (We ordered Chinese and crab rangoon.)

* When they're mad at each other..."I'm not your friend!" Then the other replies, "Well, I'm not your NEIGHBOR friend!" (Apparantly it is far worse to not have a neighbor friend??)

* "I'm going to under-arrest you!"

And Aunt Jenn's personal favorite:
Caleb was kinda nonchalantly strolling around, and I said, "Hi, cute stuff." He replied--"Hi, Beautiful."

Caleb and Lauren were starting to race. Lauren said "Mark said go. He did...go!" (Instead of mark, set, go.)

AND the NOT-so-cute quotes:

"You're fired!"
"Umm..how about no."
And the latest.... Caleb said to Miss, "Well, Jesus is going to come right out of your heart and give you a good old-fashioned whoopin'!"

Oh, the days when I'm glad I'm just the aunt! But aunts can also put kids in time-out! ha ha Really, the not-so-cute lines were few and far between. I do miss my time with all of them incredibly!